It has been a while since I did a blog post. However a new Online Bible Study started this week and I am trying to recommit completely so here is this week’s blog. The topic for this week is what fear we have that we need to work on. A lot of my fellow study participants mention fears of failure, rejection, being alone, lose of control, and the unknown. i can totally understand and relate to these fears. There was a time in my life when I struggled with them. Now after a failed marriage, being fired from a job of ten years, and yet another failed relationship, I do not struggle with those fears often. Rejection, failure, alone, faced with an unknown future, slapped in the face with the fact that the nothing is in our control – yup, been there, done that, by the grace of God overcome that.
So what fear does haunt me more than most? I would say, the fear of going back, of losing my connection to God, of forgetting all the lessons He’s taught me since I surrendered my life to him in September 2009. All relationships, even our relationship with God, require work, commitment and time together to be healthy and lasting. I am not sure if this is a fear that one can overcome. I am reminded of Peter’s struggle with an unknown obstacle where he relied on God to make him stronger through his weakness. I am reminded of the addict who must take it one day at a time to overcome an addiction. So maybe it really isn’t about kicking fear to the curb but relying on God daily for strength to overcome in spite of the fear.
At the beginning of the year, I heard a suggestion that you ask God to give you one word to focus on for the year. I thought I would give it a try and after a couple days of prayer, my word was “know”. The only way to strengthen your faith is to truly know God and what better way then through His Word. I write down any verse I come across with any from of the word “know” in it. So far I have 31 verses that I carry around with me. They are full of what God knows and what we should know. When we know something, there is no doubt, it is fact to us. I won’t type all 31 verses, especially since I’m using an iPad instead of my currently has a mind of it’s own PC, but it has been an interesting and eye opening exercise.
“The fear of The Lord is the beginning of knowledge, but fools despise wisdom and discipline” Proverbs 1:7